Sometimes change is so slow that you just say,"Forget you change! I'm going home." And then you go home only to find that your home is gone...everything changed. Then you forget how long change took and you think change is an overnight thing. Almost as quick as the time I promised God I would change if he would just let me stop throwing up and live, only to forget God as soon as I felt better. God doesn't exist...unless you think you're gonna die. That's when change comes, when you don't die, but not as much as when you do.