More Duke's

They both seem real

almost like they're me

I'm relating

confidence to overcome

frightened to leave the house

its hits like a brick to the head

brain damage

6 months or more to repair

how much damage before the permanence?

there is none

the dream

i watch



i will run

i will stretch into a pretzel  

confidence regained

hold to me

cling to me


either way as if I'm real

but I am

so I move

its beautiful sometimes


its always creating

like me

love me

my insides scream for silence


then I'm thrown in the ring

I am strong

i have my weathered belt

my leathered skin protects

my heart opens

I have the beam

Meditation - the pyramid

Is there awareness? 

where is it? 

how strong is it? 

am I aware that I'm seeing right now? 

was I aware that I was seeing before I asked myself if I'm aware I'm seeing? 


my feet are touching the floor

my sit bones rest on this chair

I'm breathing

a thought

a movie

I remember again and I am aware

for a moment

think of it like a pyramid  

the bottom is the support

it must be strong first

it is my body

touch, sight, sound, taste and smell  

how strong is the awareness? 

where is it? 

now build a side


be aware

catch yourself in thought

then remember

bring awareness to it

it probably disappeared  

thoughts enjoy the darkness

awareness is light

thoughts scamper in the light

then there's the ghost thoughts

remember to be aware

now for the third side


become aware

be present  

feel it

the pyramid is complete

throughout the day remember  

to become aware



I used to say, "Free is my favorite price." 

But now I can't think of anything more costly. 

Many things are like this. 

Things that sound good at first listen. 

I get tangled up. 

I don't notice at first. 

But they are there. 

Tying me down. 

I can't see them with my eyes. 

I'm blind with ambition. 

But I've tripped. 

Now I don't move. 

I'm lost. 

In your strings.

Next time I'll pay. 


Waiting for something

I've seen others in that place
But now I feel myself there
It's like I'm high
And I want to go down
It's an anxious waiting feeling
I sense something building
But I don't want to trip
I don't want to dissolve
I want the door that enters into
The place where dreams are made
I know it's not a pretty place
But I want in this room
I want to disappear in this room
I want to hide there
I'm too vulnerable out here
I'm waiting and am holding on
That's part of the thing
You can't go anywhere if you don't let go
I guess I'm a little scared
That I'll vanish

Not by choice

I can't sleep
I know this feeling
There's a storm coming
My insides are twisting
I say I want peace
Am I a liar?
I want to win
But the victory is transparent 
What am I?
This dream
It's like I keep waking up
I like sleep
But it scares me
I've seen god
He wasn't there 
The hills are gone
It's a desert
The man is a ghost 
I'm not here
Not usually 
The separation kills me
I'm choking
My neck 
I feel it there
I'm weak with strength
I want you
The beauty of the song
It haunts me
My love terrifies me
My heart is smashed
And glued
I won't leave
Not on my own accord


I wrote songs
Something new
From the sphere
The warmth
I'm returning 
But there's a strange feeling
In my neck
I'm choking
Just the feeling
I used to feel this as a child
I'm clearing the way
But as I do this comes to me
It's funny now
It doesn't bother me
I used to freeze
To shake
To squirm
But now I'm just present
Without judgement 
I don't want to be bad
I'm attracted to the warm
The circle
In my body
Where am I in my body?
Do you know?
The music is returning
It's also strange
It's a river
That's what I heard
I think I'm there