Not by choice

I can't sleep

I know this feeling

There's a storm coming

My insides are twisting

I say I want peace

Am I a liar?

I want to win

But the victory is transparent 

What am I?

This dream

It's like I keep waking up

I like sleep

But it scares me

I've seen god

He wasn't there 

The hills are gone

It's a desert

The man is a ghost 

I'm not here

Not usually 

The separation kills me

I'm choking

My neck 

I feel it there

I'm weak with strength

I want you

The beauty of the song

It haunts me

My love terrifies me

My heart is smashed

And glued

I won't leave

Not on my own accord