feel good
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I just want to feel good. That's all I've ever wanted. I just want to feel OK. How can someone who wants to feel good feel so bad?
Worry, anxiety, fear, negative self talk, shame spirals, deep depression, loneliness in a crowd, and a million other things that sum up the bad feeling inside of me.
When you do something that's right then somehow the world seems right. I've experienced glimpses of this. I've tried to bottle this feeling and save it for later but the feeling is fleeting.
I used to think that if I just went to church and cleaned up my act then I would have nothing but smooth sailing. Doesn't work for me. What people tell me I should do doesn't work for me. Never has. I want to be great. That's part of the problem I guess. I can't just be a worker among workers. I have to stand out. I've been made to feel wrong for it.
That's me. I'm different. There's something a little different about me. I guess that's what everyone says about themselves. I've spent years trying to tell myself that I'm not different but I can't shake the feeling. Trying to fit a circle into a square peg is the perfect analogy for me. I don't fit. Where the fuck is the circle?
This is the question. Find the circle and find the secret to feel good.
Worry, anxiety, fear, negative self talk, shame spirals, deep depression, loneliness in a crowd, and a million other things that sum up the bad feeling inside of me.
When you do something that's right then somehow the world seems right. I've experienced glimpses of this. I've tried to bottle this feeling and save it for later but the feeling is fleeting.
I used to think that if I just went to church and cleaned up my act then I would have nothing but smooth sailing. Doesn't work for me. What people tell me I should do doesn't work for me. Never has. I want to be great. That's part of the problem I guess. I can't just be a worker among workers. I have to stand out. I've been made to feel wrong for it.
That's me. I'm different. There's something a little different about me. I guess that's what everyone says about themselves. I've spent years trying to tell myself that I'm not different but I can't shake the feeling. Trying to fit a circle into a square peg is the perfect analogy for me. I don't fit. Where the fuck is the circle?
This is the question. Find the circle and find the secret to feel good.