I want this for you

It's what I want to give you
But the giving is hard
It's what I want for you
But it's too tough for love
Not now can I be here
Not now can I sing
It's later when the gold is seen
It's later in the dream
It's what I want for you
But I know it's right for me
Something that easily slips
Yet it stands in front so clean
I want it now
That's my downfall
I want the taste
I want to forget
I want to avoid the pain
The knots are tied
My stomach crawls
The spiders live
Inside these walls
My web is deep
That part can't move
The web is strong
And the life is growing weak
I want this for you
Not that
I want what I know is true
I want that for you
I want it to